temptation.

the feeling of this all is regretfull; but in the long one everyone wins....


the way you were so close, the way you and me were face to face... it all felt...... not the same. i was searching for all the things i use to hold on so close. for some reason; its all lost. how badly i believe i miss the person that i use to call my everything; but after a while i think i found my answer. i will never love you again. and im most def. okay with that.

i felt sick, i felt like a wanted to throw up, i felt like i wanted to pass out but the same time i didn't give a fuck what was going on, i just needed something, but now i'm most likly again on the hunt. finding that certain someone to give me butterflies, someone to give me the feeling i'm not alone, and give me the overall feeling of pure happiness; till then i'm all good in the hood.

shitty friday.

TAC TAC THE SCRAPE SCRAPE.



my day was long, and chill even though the night just seemed to be more; alone/"me" time. sooo hopefully tommorow night can be crackin' one timer?! kthanks.




"player". ah kekeke, too much fun.

bite me.

long time no blog. i haven't really had time to actually sit on the computer, think of something spiffy to say and tell the world my current issues and fascinations; i think it might be a good think taking a break from this thing.

i am currently tired, my feet feel like i walked around disneyland three times and back. my scheduale for sleeping is so messed up; safeway sucks. i got school tommorow; im not too excited but it won't be toobad. what else is bothering me is the fact i misplaced my liscence... i hope its in my dads car, which ill check early morning when theres sunlight.

anywho, life's been dandy. the usual. school, work, lovely friends, chill, hang, etc. nothing to exciting but not to dull. i seem to go everywhere these days. i ate sushi with the trio plus blaine which was sooooo bomb. got to hookah out of alexis's new nifty hookah. been lit for these couple of days, im ready for the weekend.

ify about clubbing. down for party this sat..., and maybe some sort of trip or relax day too add.

im mind seems blank because i'm literally bout to pass out after i shut down this son of a bitch.


boys? hahaha, lets say... theres plenty. and im having fun. this who single idea is getting to me.. i'm most def. liking it. and every dude is different.. ahahah.. just now to to choose. hahha sike ill let it beeee. :)

ill blog later. i need to sleep pronto!

its been a while.

my spacebar is fucking up. and im bout to rip this shit off and be like " YOU BETTER FIX YOUR SHIT!!" hahaha, just kidding. im in an okay mood, excited. energized. just a tad tired but ill live.. i wanna read for 30 mins; im currently reading a book called boytoy. its actually pretty good. i like itt.

i had alot of shit on my mind today, and actually alot to actually write and actually would be a nice blog entry..... but to be honest. i'm lazy, and this is the last of my intrest. so i'm going to cut this short, and maybe blog tommorow night, or even ... actually i will tommorow, you guys are in for a treat.


goodnight.

it hurts more and more.

i'm super tired. i just want to blog real quick before i hit the "hay". work, hella worked me. haha, i cleaned HELLA bad, like i got all neat freak mode and cleaned the breakroom, made that fucking ugly place like new. i only get 16 hours next week. fucking ugly.


my jaw hurts so bad. i still cant believe all that shit happened, i just know forsure, if my jaw hurts till this weekend; i'm going to the doctors to get this shit checked out. it hurts when i kinda just dont say anything, but then again it hurts when i do talk. i feel like my jaw lightweight shifted... which is fucking bad. i'm still stressed out about what happened.

to know how my mom felt, to know jaycee was shaking and crying. it fucking scared me. i feel depressed, and kind of looked it like this, at least it ain't my brothers. i don't think any of this is fair. i dont even understand what fucking made him trigger to literally do that shit to me, i swear. i'm fucking done with this shit. restraing order or not; hes fucking gonna get it. karma is a bitch.

ugh school at 9. this sucks. oh well at least im off.
grocery shopping, and my mom mentioned concord :) yay.

and you thought you had it bad.

my heads throbbing. my back aches in pain. my ear is beating, and stings to an extent. and with the beating I just got; I feel like shit.

abuse. violence if fucking bullshit. and everytime something happens like this to me. I can never find the strength to fight back; im weaker by the minute.

romeo harina is the most fucked up hypocrite stupidest ignorant person ever.

and lemme tell you something. I swear; if I wasn't so scared as much I hate him, I probably would kill him. he dosent and will never understand the way I feel. I never had so much hate for anyone.

if I can take it all back. I wish I was never born in this piece of shit; called a family. I fucking cannot stand of all these dumbasses.

im sick of hearing bullshit. i m tired getting treated like im fucking no one.

I will fucking prove you and you; down to every last person who has doubt me.

fuck you.

ouch my body.

hurry up dye,

im here at melanies; waiting for her shit to dye... even though i'm not gonna lie, i am lightweight nervous about her sneak attacking my hair.... HEY HEY, CALM DOWN... its alright..

school sucked; but its kinda whatever. had to clean the guniea pigs. got lit. ate hella olive garden. watched a walk to remember<3.

PARAMORE , FUCKING 09' SUMMER TOUR.
WITH NO DOUBT. its actually pretty fucking tight.

can i tell you how juiced; i am ?!
tooooo FUCKINGJUICED. :) im exciteddd !




people are so stupid. they need to stop lying to themselves.
you never did that. you never done that. blah blah blah.
poser. liar. biter. all of the fucking above.

i am too full.

my computer is running like crazy, its like breathing fucking hella loud. ugh, im full. we finnaly ALL almost came together but oh well. i ate some bomb ass breakfast with blaine, alexis, justin and melanie.

today was all mumble jumble. i argued with my parents about school and my car situation; "aeriel i dont care". fine if you dont give a fuck, then fuck you too. got into some.. arguments with justin about leaving people out. got robby a haircut; chilled with josssh & vince. had to fucking talk to stupid bitch sharon and fucking dickface james about my messed up sched.

basically.. I FUCKING CAN'T STAND THOSE FUCKING STUPID ASSHOLES. i swear; me getting written up for being late, because of school?! what the fucking shit is that. whatever.

my mom was being a told asshole all day too, its like holy shit can everyone calm down ?! screaming at me using her car, etcetc. FUCK, i mean get me a car and we won't have a fucking problem. i wish my bmw was alright againnnn, maaan no lie thoo. shit, everything just seemed so fucking easy.

me and alexis cut blaine's hair. i have to admit it wasn't too baddd; and i dyed it too, i like it :). i was getting mad for the fact i couldn't dye mine because safeway has to be a fucking cunt and i already knew they would complain etcetc. i'll just dye it later.....

people are fucking stupid. i cant stand people sometimes. it brings me back memories for all the fucked up people who fucked me over and how i'm still like what the fucking fuck?! its so pathetic; i'm tired of hearing and seeing shit about you. fucking fail.

i need to sleeep; school AND work tommorow. god dammit.

grilled cheese.

work wasn't to bad, it was blah blah blah, etc etc, belinda bought me, tracy and jasmine ice cream :) i think i was too juiced i forgot to clock a sweep :(. god dammit.


i'm bored, and i hope tommorow will be better. i hope my "family" will be able to go watch bloody valentine in 3d tmmrw. i miss everyone together, and HOPEFULLY tmmrw can finnaly be the day we can be together again. the past sundays were kilt because someone would either be busy or working etc. like for example this sunday, alexis wasn't even in town, and i worked till midnight. so see where i'm going?

i'm still lost and confused. the boy situation. bleh. it dosen't mean shit anymore. i mean fine, yes i want a boyfriend. i want to be able to call someone mine, i want to do this and that, yes all that lovely dovey shit that i apparently miss. i believe i am content at the moment. talking and seeing whos out there, and at this pace i like it. not too fast, and not too attached. its all good.

yay, imma lay down.
goodnight.

bleeh.

im here at home, the suns going down and i feel like im wasting my day. i mean its hopeless friday equals traffic. i tech. got no car, and i'm getting tired driving that yukon everywhere. i'm so lazy, maybe i should just take nap till like seven, because blaine will finnaly be off...

this morning was so weird. i cleaned my room and i ended up staring up at all my pictures i have everywhere around my room, because i never really sat down and took the time to look at it. i spotted pictures from so long ago. times of senior year at lunch, times in morgans car, prom, random photo shoots. i see matt, morgan, daniel, ian, andrew, stephanie, jade, kevin, and alot more people. i started to laugh, and smile because all the random times that went down last year. i fucking miss highschool. i miss how it was simple, and how lunch was always crackin'. i miss all those people in the class of 08' and i wonder how is everyone doing, i remember the crazy rides home with morgan when i couldnt drive. i couldnt stop laughing remembering us all yelling at people and shit. just shit like that made me feel all sad but happy. eh, its time to grow up maybe.

i feel so bored. jesus. i think maybe i will go out and do something, just. dont know yet? ill blog more later.

uhh yes?

what a fuckin' day. i wake up know what i had to do, so i got up and did my thang. got my check, asked to switch but that was fucking pointless; im losing 5.25 hours of work on my next paycheck, this fucking blows so therefore saturday better be crackin'.

i fucking smoked all day.
- vince mel alexa.
- vince mel.
- levi, vince, mel, alexis.
- blaine, mel, levi, vince. (2)
= 6 times?! jesus.

i feel weird. i dont know if i even like this certain someone. its like one day i think i do, then when its right there, i dont think i want to anymore. im scared, because i feel kind of selfish, why because i like that feeling of flirting and etc, but then again i don't want to ish? ugh this is very complicated.

i'm hella... down. theres some shit i never wanted to happen. i love my bhfl; but i dont know if shits still the same. this is fucking irritating. he fucking burned me, and i swear i feel like shit. i mean what the fuck. it wasn't that easy getting around, my car was fucking broken and is till this day. my parents are fucking lame and wont let be out, and for me to do everything myself, fucking was too much for me. you didnt even try tho either, thats just.. ugh i dont even know, i just feel like i fucked up.

ugh now my mood is kilt.
im sorry.

oh my fucking god.

how the hell do i start this. step one; patience.

my head is going insane. all these thoughts hitting me at once, this is fucking crazy. i dont know if i'm either still high which is impossible, am i just over thinking, am i too hyper, am i too tired to think, am i getting butterflies, am i getting restless waiting for some type of response, can i even believe this is happening? i am... way too juiced, someone just caught me off guard, and i think i'm learning how to play this game.




jesus, SAY SOMETHING... please?

and for the other pointless things out there; get your own shit, and get off my jock. and maybe you start actually listen to what you are saying, because your talking about yourself. "OMG YOU FUCKING SICK CUNT."

biters, hella annoying.

what the fucking, fuck.

my mood is def. has been kilt for the passed, 3 hours. i haven't been so irritated in so long, and to be honest; i have no fucking clue what it might be this time.

i dont get people these days, and i still dont get me at times either. today, was really testing me. how selfish indeed, and these dirty games we are playing, geez, i'm not gonna lie, this is what i been wanting to spice things up a bit... but then again.... i don't even want it.

_______, you suck. you know why? i dont get it how on your time, you can go ahead and start a conversation and ask how the hell i'm doing. when i try to, you ignore me right off the bat. who said you were in charge? fuck you. its not like you really care "whats on my mind". sad part is, maybe you are one of the reasons i'm hella ... UGH.

mind games, mind games. you like being chase? you like doing this and that? i dont get this bullshit.

literally, liking someone/relationships are too fucking complicated. this is a major reason why i never wanted to like someone... or in this case anyone again. i thought i moved on & for the other, i thought i wasn't even sure if i even had feelings for you. jesus. i'm confused, i'm torn.

......ugh i'm smiling. AND WHY!? here we go again; YOU CAN'T FUCKING PLAY WITH MY FUCKING EMOTIONS. i'm so screwed, i dont even understand what i even want. i feel like, i'm so selfish, i feel jealousy building up, i feel so ugh, so lost. i'm getting a fucking headache.

and you supposedly got everything worked out for you, woo woo.

lucky you, someone help me.

god damn you g. & sc2.

fuck school, fuck this shit.

who knew being out of highschool can be so frustrating, you get so hyped up for graduation and saying good bye to all that highschool drama, feeling like you been kept in for too long.... you forget about the real world.

college is so stupid. i mean i wish i did a better job in highschool. i regret slacking off, and taking the time to actually be serious what am i going to do when im out. its like, its easy saying you will be doing this and that, but shit, when you gotta get the work done, its more scarier than i thought.

i'm so sick of people telling me what to take or what to do. i'm getting so tired of people judging me of what i want to take. its like shit, this is my fucking life. i know your there to not let me fall... but these couple steps, i need to learn how to do this shit on my own.

i just need the time to sit down and read about jobs and everything out there. ugh, this is too much for me. i want to be fucking 14 again, only stressing about what new clothes i need to get, or the latest cd that i must get, and wondering if my crush will ever think of me.

GOD JESUS. i dont want to be a failure like _ _ _ _ _ .
never.*

ugh, i keep gathering more shit to be frustrated about. like leave me the fuck alone, i have enough shit to worry about. my head hurts. i honestly don't know what to do, i don't understand why you are still in my head. i thought maybe writing that letter could be step number one of getting away, but i guess it just made it worser by you leaving with no answers at all.

i keep getting angry or confused when i see anything that has to remind me of you. inside jokes, pictures, anything. i guess maybe the fact.. i know and i swear, i can do so much better then her, keeps irritating one last feeling i still have for you. i feel like i'm crazy or doing too much of this situation, even though i'm still in the same spot where i was before i even gave that god damn letter, just without the excitement and temptation. ugh, fuck my life.

fkgfkefkofkrfkgfkifka

solve this. get off my mind.

someone wake me up.

i feel so dead, no energy at all. its like, i'm awake; just lifeless. maybe after a energy drink or something, ill wake up, but till then, someone help me.

right now, im getting so like "baaaaaaah!", because im confused for the plans for tonight.

- hoookah bar! $15 dollaaaa.
wif: melanie, alexa, alexis, morgan, matt, justin, levi and vince.
- minus blaine.. because that nigga got some fucked up shift, he won't be off till four am. :(

i want it to be crackin' and it better wake me the fuck up. hahaha, ill blog later about our adventure. haha. mwah.


____ *

updateeee; 1:53am.
hookah bar mission faillleeed. it wasn't even openn.. I had a bad feeling it was tho. we decided to go to in n out. everyone hella hungry, and tripeeeen.

we went to home to some scaryy ass place. it literaly looked like those teen horror movies. idkk that was such a bad placee.

im tireddd. I basically smoked hella much todaaay. im tired

ugh, confusion.

i got work in like 3 hours, so in a bit i'mma take a shower, and take my time. i kind of wanna sit outside for a little and maybe get my last roll of film and start clicking away.

to be honest, i been a bit fustraded. i don't even know if it is this thing, or something else. because its like, it dosen't bother me to the extent.. but its enough to be like what should i do now?

i really made up my mind. i'm ready to have someone in my life again. i'm ready to open up, put my guard down, and maybe see what else that can be out there. i mean being single isn't really all that bad, i pretty much am use to it now. i like the whole, no boundries bull shit.. but then again, i want a fuckin' challenge.

i'm getting so bored, i'm getting so restless. its like the more i try to move on, or see if theres potential.. then that plan fails or either.. i'm not feelin' it at all. thats the sad part too. i just want to be hella juiced again. i wanna be able to talk and tell stories about what happened between him/her and me that day. its kind of like, i miss highschool butterflies down to even last bit of being with someone, or at least have DIBS.

people are just so confusing and stupid. i dont get them. its like one day, you can decide whenever you want to this or that. its like god dammit make a move already! but, i offically dont even like anyone..

or maybe i do. and i just cant move on... ugh. its like that movie "rules of attraction".

"no one will never know no one.
and you'll never ever get to know me. "

its like no one ever appericates the fact people like them or something. and that person never likes that certain someone. truth is; its never ever gonna be the way you want it to be. even how badly your craving for them. so bad, it hurts and you just want one more chance, only if your willing to give one.


x_____________ ( your name here. )
help me.

blah blah blah.

sitting in this hella hot ass car, breathin hella hard, talkin' too much, weird a.d.d stories, slappin' shit here in the valleyho.

there's a half smoked blunt on my knee. my high is getting hella kilt and shit.

where are you levi?

mmm, to I smell flirting. hmmm goodbye to your ssavior ;) hahahaaha. mmm can he trade places.


georgia st ? stop stalking me. you already missed you shot, but second chance or idk.

sc2; !?!?!? mmmmm ?


can I get high now. kthanks.

i am out of it.

i seem some what tired, fucking like no energy. i just want to relax today, and enjoy the outside. i kind of what to get into some skate session, so i need to make some calls.

yesterday was some shit. i was busy all day, with plans galore. me and blaine's mission failed for the fact he forgot he had work. the day went like this.

-olive garden.
-calenders.
-24 info.
-rod, saw soulmate & hella others.
-solano shit.
-rules of attraction.
-vallejo, levi.
-meet up with vince, got blaine.
-chiled for a bit.
-jack and the box.
-vallejo.
-home.

i would explain more, but thats just too much to type. haha, im kind of hungry, but im not?

i think i'll just blog later.

uh huh, yessir.

today was fun. packed with every random thing you can think of. seeing Melanie on the road, had work, drank yummy odawalas, talked to Blaine for a hour or so and now i'm awake, and should be sleeping soon.



ugh. people these days, are so funny, quite hypocritical. i mean, I'm not gonna lie, i am too. yeah yeah, no one's perfect, but just be careful what your little mouth got to say. i see and hear drama, watching people do what they do, its like people don't really know what to do. the other day i was at work and i literally watched two like.. holy shit grown ass men fighting over a fucking parking space. they really had the fucking time to roll down the window, maybe throw some gestures around, waving their stupid arms around to seem like they were "hard". its just like god damn, how people are so fucking ignorant these days and how people need to learn to actually "grow up". "this is so fucking pathetic.", actually what i was thinking walking away. mhm, shaking my head.. "fucking pathetic."


ugh, i dont know; with other people. since i'm on the topic about being, "grown up". look at you, on myspace etc etc blahblahblah. THATS HIGHSCHOOL, MIDDLESCHOOL bullshitt. got something to say?, you know where each other lives, you can call each other, you can do this and that, so many god damn options. GOD DAMMIT. actually do me a favor and listen and do what you apparently say about be "grown people". whatever, cry me a fucking river.

&& i'm worried about some people. this world is so dirty.
i want to take away flity whores, compulsive liars, ignorant people, etc etc etc, out there. its ruining peoples lifes. esp, with fucking peer pressure still going on. i dont get why people still care what others think.


i just want to meet someone who fresh and so clean.
yeah would be a refreshing start.

TGIF.

start out fresh.

tommorow is offically day one.

new habits. throw away bad habits. cut down, a step at a time.



i will be able to do this. just straight focus and faith, its all good.

tired.

i think my sleep schedule is going to be fucked up for a while. i mean what the fuck. close sunday night. open today, open again tommorow, then close the next day? what the! its like sleeping late, then waking up super early then sleep late again? its like damn !

work was fucking shitty. i woke up hella sick and i really felt like i couldn't take it but i had to on such late notice. for half my shift all i did was push back all the carts. they took them out the night before to hose down the front, but i dont think thats fair how i got to get it. tommorow is gonna be some shit since im going to be hella tired and cold and im actualy going to stay till one. ugh, im getting sick of this.

i head home sleep till like 3, and get all pissy because my dad is fucking stupid as usual. alexa come gets me and we eat. finnaly get some treeeee. and smoke ittt. i got high hella quick which was weird. went to dolla scoop and ate HELLLLLAAA bombb ass ice cream. i got mint chocolate chip & world class chocolate... mmmm i want some more :) then we get back and decide to go to safeway and visit vince and plus blaine wanted to get more mintues. we decide to match justin, and i couldnt take so much hits because i had to go home.

now i kind of got a headache, and basically right after this i'mma go sleep cas i need my rest.



but with the other things. nothings really new, same old same old. loving every minute, and im starting to notice how i have sc2 popping up in my head. i dont know, its weird. because i like the pace where we are at. slowwwwwwwww, and plus im not really ready to jump back in and liking someone again you know? i just hope it won't be like my past times.

but im good!


goodnight.

again with the fucking cold.

its always god damn freezing in this bitch, like holy shit can you be warm for a little? damn imma die of being cold.




today fucking sucked. worked all day. was fucking tiring too, it was slow... so everything went slow. i just wished i was at home at dinner sundays. :(


im quite fustrated about things. i just... cant seem to make out what are those "things" are. is it just how things are going, if i even do like them etc etc, are the whole boy situation going the right way or not? i dont know.

i just want to relax onetimer.

"RE-RACK!"

man, im super tired. i think i finnaly met my mark of staying up late. EVERYSINGLE night i have been doing fucking anything that is possible, and lemme tell you , haha its been fuckin' crackin, but of course it can't be crackin' for too long, you gotta have a bad bug in the road.

last night, or tech two days ago.. so friday, was pretty dope. i decided to take advantage for the fact my mommy is gone fo the weekend, and jsut the fact my dad dont come home till later had to got to me; " aerieeel have a some type or kickit/partay thingy." so i did.

it consist of: me, melanie, alexa, vince, levi, matt, levi's brother + gf, morgan, justin, robert, matt, david, brain, and blaine + the 8. beer pong, and hookah had taken place. my bestfriend and i fucking killed hellas games, until one cup and some stupid fucking rule came up. but i made this DOPPEE ass trick shot, man i was beastin. the night went one, with fucking gigs and what not. the night was ending so clean up occured, and some drama went down but its whatever.

the rest that was left head to jack n the box ( me, melanie, alexis, matt, matt, levi and vince.) fucking drunk and shit -_-, drive those niggas home, almost died cas the fog was fucking thick. get home around 3, and then BAM. get caught up by my "dad". but i burned him. hahahaha.

today was dope too. i cleaned and what not. then blaine ended up getting me, to meet up with alexis and them at taco bell. singing underoath and coheed, we almost died, and all of us screaming cas of blaines insane driving. went to rock on, looked at dildos and porno -_- haha and finnaly bought our coals.

head home, chill in room with blaine and alexis, then matt showed up then alexa, then justin, then vince and ian, then morgan and ari. we played a game of kings cup, chill in the backyard and skate, finnaly got the game of beer pongs.

me and my bestfriend WHOOPED every single game. haha
matt and vince. fail.
alexis and matt. fail.
blaine and matt. FAIL.

hahahahaha. then got our hookah session going. watched this fucking scary ass japanesse movie. got lightweight hyphy. then ended the night, and didnt get caught :)

man, its like every night im out doing something!
new years eve: club, and chill with vince and them.
new years day: hookkaaah barrr ! with BAJAMD (-A & M ) + vince, levi, alex.
jan 2: kickit party.
jan 3: kickit.
jan 4:..... i got work ... KILLLLLLLLLLT.

im tired, so i guess its good to get a break in there.

sc2: mm.. im happy. and i think.. im getting good and better signals. :) <3

and for everything else on my mind. its so funny seeing all these people like literally doing too much. okay, its fucking 2009 peoples, i think its time to grow up. get your own vocabulary, get your own sense of .. mm whats the word for it.. lemme put it this way. people stop biting, it wont get you anywhere. "GET OUT OF MY FAAAAYYYZEEEE".

no really, because its fucking annoying.
goodnight.

sssss-ceeee- dos.

it is 326am. holy shit why im awake, and am I really on my phone.

offically on the first day of the year, wake up with alexa and sit and talk, and call people and said hello. first breakfast date of the year. hahaha.

clean guniea pigs, chill in my room and fix the space. then get informed about the hookah bar. :)

around 8 we meet up and beaner packin': me melanie alexis david justin and blaine. we meet up with vince, alex and levi. drive to the asain mall.

we park and decide to match, and hotbox my car with 9 people haahah.. crackin'

the hookah bar was chill and fun. hella yummy flavors, I wanted to dance, but the music was weak but the vube was kilt anyways. we decide to spilt around 12 and head to in n out. eat there and blaine and I were cappin about the spread he gave me hahahahaha. and he's spilt killed me alexis and melanies hunger. hahaha

couldn't find any tree so dropped off vincee.

we drive home, and all went our separate ways.

get home like at 1, change and etc and ended up getting aphone call from vince, and talked foreeeverr with this cunt :) 2 hours. holy crap.


sc2, I think I might offically, like you. mm idk the feelings are still a tad confused but I got this. just gnna take it sloww. :)

iam too happy and too juiced.
I wished my bestfriend came tho. hmph.


wrk tmmrwwww ! 245 to 815. oh yup.

hello oh nine. (2009)

happy new year, and i hope this year will be crackin' as my last.

offically, i'm still weirded out for the fact this past year went by so quick. and let me tell you it was the most intense, crazy, growing up year for me.

last year exactly at this time, i was probably driving back to fairfield with kevin, morgan and matt from his mom's wedding. its weird, how these past new years i was with those people and this year it was completly different because shit happens and we weren't with each other this time, and probably won't ever again as a group.

i had a good and a bad year. i mean i learned and grown literally. my maturity level is at its highest, and i'm proud how i handle myself. school was sad to say goodbye, lost friends, gain hella awesome ones, fell and out of love, understood how people work, and just growing up.

you would think i would type alot about what happened last year, or tech. what was my highlight. i dont know. its weird. like remembering it all, its sad time to time because no lie, i miss it to the extreme but honestly? i'm pretty god damn content right now, its fucking amazing.

i'm most def. ready for this year, oh nine might be something good. so brrinngg what you have in store for me new year :).

wanna know about my new years eve? lemme put it this way.

- get off work at 8:15.
- get ready at alexas, leave around 9:15
- arco, drive to the city, thank god for fastrack.
- get lost for a couple mins, and finnaly find our way back.
- drove in like 4 circles but paid 30dollas for parking, RIGHT next to citynights.
- chugged HEEEEEM and monsters.
- get in, the place is pretty banging, watch from afar, dance. got a DRANK!
- midnight ball drops, scream and shout.
- leave club around 1, try to find my cousins & a bathroom.
- leave the city at 2, asked vince what hes up to.
- pick up that nigga in the cuts, got levi & matt.
- had to bring vince home cas his mommy.
- get back into fairfield around 4 and chat with alexa till 430.
- and finnaly passed out at 5.

happy new year.
ps: i love my bestfriend mogs :)
and BAJAMDAM.