what the fucking, fuck.

my mood is def. has been kilt for the passed, 3 hours. i haven't been so irritated in so long, and to be honest; i have no fucking clue what it might be this time.

i dont get people these days, and i still dont get me at times either. today, was really testing me. how selfish indeed, and these dirty games we are playing, geez, i'm not gonna lie, this is what i been wanting to spice things up a bit... but then again.... i don't even want it.

_______, you suck. you know why? i dont get it how on your time, you can go ahead and start a conversation and ask how the hell i'm doing. when i try to, you ignore me right off the bat. who said you were in charge? fuck you. its not like you really care "whats on my mind". sad part is, maybe you are one of the reasons i'm hella ... UGH.

mind games, mind games. you like being chase? you like doing this and that? i dont get this bullshit.

literally, liking someone/relationships are too fucking complicated. this is a major reason why i never wanted to like someone... or in this case anyone again. i thought i moved on & for the other, i thought i wasn't even sure if i even had feelings for you. jesus. i'm confused, i'm torn.

......ugh i'm smiling. AND WHY!? here we go again; YOU CAN'T FUCKING PLAY WITH MY FUCKING EMOTIONS. i'm so screwed, i dont even understand what i even want. i feel like, i'm so selfish, i feel jealousy building up, i feel so ugh, so lost. i'm getting a fucking headache.

and you supposedly got everything worked out for you, woo woo.

lucky you, someone help me.

god damn you g. & sc2.