"dont depend on the american dream.."

today, or tech. yesterday was... ehhhh, alright. my day was busy busy busy. lemme break it down for you.

-school: 9-10:50 ( ditched math, because its a SHITTY class )
soc, we watched 2 movies. "pursuit of happiness" not the will smith movie fyi. "a girl like me". the first movie was about denmark, being marked the happiness country on this planet, because they don't expect too much. they believe straight up on thinking positive and caring what is needed most, like not having too high/much expectations. did you know denmark students get FREE education even through college, university or not. its FUCKING FREE. lucky huh?

"A girl like me." was the most... wowing short documentary ever. Its about how this society is so built on sterotypes and racism. the one that suprised me was on the test about black dolls and white dolls. Which was was more prefered? the white doll. MOST of all those kids were black and all picked the white doll, because their beliefs were that it was the "nicer" doll, and that it was better then the black doll. its so sad to see we came a long was from racism but, FROM this day we still are at the same stage we were a couple years ago. im too speechless, it awas the most depressing shit i watched. truth fucking hurts, and us as people suck balls.

-melanies.
-enjoy the nice weather, burned.
-chill and talk.
"i'm kind of like stupid right now..."

-FOOD; applebees. HELLA FULL.
-tj maxx, gots me a hella cute bag <3
"its meant to be!"

-library.
-mikhail.
-tapexxx! ( aly, sherilynn, ben, john, vince and brian. ) see hella people there like wilson, mike joe, and mr.salmon aka. jt.
"DAMNNN smashing through the parking lot!" "Hey you better let me hit if you bout to hit me"

-meet thug nasty's parents; too cute :))).
-vallejoo.. had to pee HELLA bad, and melanie & ben were trying to ruin my life.
"TICKLE HER!!" "duddeee i will throw up!"

-garage session. beastin at guitars, drums and rap.
"TOOHARDFORTHEFUCKINGRADIO".
-burn, gig, chill. split.
-tjmaxx wif mother.
-get blaine & mel.
-burn, starbucks ( so akward with the "pigs" )
"oink oink". " IS THAT __" " SWEAR?... nah...."
-paraniod park, kilt.
"OMGGG!! his body is spilt!!!!!!!"

my friday night was basically chill and kind of kilt. our expectation for the night was high, since we thought we were going to some party but eneded up not, but whatever i had a fun time today.

i called him today. he sounded hella tired or some shit, but i forgot he dosen't live out here. he told me that he might come down tommorow, or either next weekend and forsure to call me if hes coming so we can see each other. "oh yup." :) yay.

i'm super tired and i got work tommorow at 2:45. ugh, but at least i get off at 8:30 riiiiight? YES! i hope i see him.. or do something fucking CRACKIN!

rain, rain.

here we go again with another sleepless night; laying here, hearing the rain is another trip down memory lane.. again.

this time I have the lack of energy to be super blog woman and probably ready to pass out. im not complaining tho, haha. I need the sleep.

ilm so proud of myself right now, im literally hella ballin' the most I have been, beingthe young adult I am. fucking bankkk. im saving for my true needed expenses... car, bike, etc etc.

I wish I had someone to lay with rightt now, nights like this def. call for a cuddle buddy. I miss spooning, hahha what a funny word.

im happy tho. like things going on right now? things are hella good.

work is fucking easy, and has been pretty chilllll. schools, eaasssy and the classes are fairly easy. my friends are dopee as usual. money = ballin. my family has been pretty chill as well. boy things are gooddd, slow and jus how I wanted it.

yay. too juiced. I just need to get little things out of my agenda tmmrw. I need my L'S. I misplaced that shit D: I hope I hav time tmmrw to get it done !!!!

k sleeeeeeeep.

ps: im tatted.... hahahahahaa ill post a pic up later...

free pancake day

I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
And with my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me

Yeah
Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Lock the doors
Cause I'd like to capture this voice
That came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this

________

today was pretty chill. get ready for school; and get a phone call from levi asking me to ditch school to come down and hang/chief/eat with him, ben, ali and sherilynn. got them at the georgia safeway, head out to cheif and then get our free pancakes at ihop. head back to fairfield, get mel's check frm mikhail. fucking tired as fuck... " YEA BUDDY..." that fucking song... anywho i pass out around 4 and didnt wake up till like 7-8. i was like holy shit... oops. hahaha.

so things lately has been good, i mean i have my little bumps in the road this week is highly stressful. from past crushes to current crushes. its hella just like fuckk go away. past crushes; just fucking kilt, make me understand why people should never trust anyone because people have big ass mouths and shit. FUCKING NOT COOL. and with current crushes, i dont understand for me being hooked. i mean i came along way from last year, no one was able to make me feel the way i do now.. its kind of weird and akward.. and i think i kind of like it?

but im still not sure if im ready it get back into that mess, having that past relaspe, it make me overthink too much shit. but to be honest.. i'm ready to settle down.. but of course with the right person...

and hes out there yeah? well see...

i hope to get to see .... sooon. because something about that friday night just got me.. insane. fuck.

can I finnaly sleep ?

im super tired, and im hella glad I am, last night I couldn't sleep again... till 4...

work was easy today, it was a good wrk day. this lady told james I was hella helpful and shit. yahoo !

got to chief and finnaly see blaine :]. that was funnnn. my dad end up being of.. for no reason eh killed.

well I had a gooday yesss.

ksleep.

ps: still hooked.

sunday.

today was so boring, but more just to relax and chill.. and i guess straight up do nothing. plus with the weather all shitty, what was there really to do? haha, also didn't pass out till 5:30am... fail.

i wake up at 11, pass out again till 1:30ish... missed a phone call from mogs, so i give him a call back, and we talk for a while catching up bout what was new and our weekend. he made me laugh hella bad bout his stories; i miss that guy. my bestfriend is too far! fucccckkk. but ill see him soon.

i was suppose to go see levi and ben tonight, but a ride issue, not trying to drive and asking was just too much. so i decided to just stay home and see them tommorow. ill finnaly get to see blaine as well, it felt like forever since i saw that nigga.

i'm lightweight sprung, and so 50/50 what i wanna do with these feelings. so far is game is working, and fuckkk. man. but i have a test for him, welll seeee..... but shit. hurry up. hahahahaha. :)

got school and work tommorow. boo !

im hooked.

" sounds like some bad drug..."dduuudee im hookedd" "

ps: parties was fucking weaaaaaaaakkkkkk. hyphy ass niggas AGAIN ?!

happy birfday alexis.

I hope you had an overall good time. those fuckers will get those, hella direspectful and don't understand why people even thought that was cool.

butttt, it was crackin' when it happened. I got to danceee and what not, even everyone else ! btw, the penis cake was crackin, I hope it was good..... :]

jack and the box was pretty chill wif mel, alexa, claudia, ben, john and levi.

got to see ..... :] "its like that?" mmmm. hahaha. I think butterfiles are in the making ? <3 "I feel like im not single" yessssss. "aerielssss maccccccccckkkkkkkinnnnn".

ah kekekekekekekim having a better day/night tho !

tired as a motherfucker.

im tired. club was alright, but besides that, I think I do too much for people and I think I'm regretting doing shit for them too, this is the most irritating shit ever.

after a while, I think im too nice, or I'm fucking retarded. I do so much for people, put people before me.. but somehow in the long run, I get fucked over.

don't fucking treat me the way you do, esp. left me there with closure from the past. don't act like your clueless about what im talking about btw.

therefore, I think I take back all the things I planned for you this week. and be whatever, just the way you act. I don't understand why I even try anymore. I get blown off anyways, even as a friend.

hope you had a good thursday night. mine was good but with fustration right now.

ugh fuck this shit.

sensual seduction.

is tonight, we are currently at alexas.

math was cancelled today. so we got our day started early. went to the mall, got our shoes, met alexis there and chilled, then now we are here....

today is fucking taking forever. and UGH; we just want it to be tonight alreadddy, perked & high. im gonna fucking dance my ass off because now i got people with me, bwahaha, fuck yes.


too juiced :] today is a good day, all pretty, and so tonight.... is too exciting. YES !

violins?

currently waiting for my nails to dry, just repainted them. i'm hella tired from today, i had a long ass day!

woke up kind of late for school, for the fact i didn't sleep till 3 last night, fucking sucked. got to class like 5 mins late, math was cancelled and decided to tac tac the bmw. the shit was so bomb, i got hella lit. me and melanie went to pelayos and got some bomb ass burrittos then got some goooddd ass ice creams too. jesus. went home for a bit, took a nap, then got the two. headed out to concord. got our outfits, went to alexasthen headed to verizon. "you are at version 3.0 and they are at 6.0, you need an update.." "DAMNNN GIRRLLL YOU LAGGGGINNNN!" went to the mall and went to every other store, got other shit and decided to call it a night.

i am too juiced of this weekend, and its most def. productive....

tommorrow:
-school.
-get last min outfit shit.
-get makeup and hurr did.
-club at glaskat for sensual seduction :)



w/ melanie, alexa, alexis, vince, levi and i think rachel is going too!?

friday:
-school.
-grocery shop.
-go to concord and shop wif mommy.
-do and finish project.
-get ready for party.
-alexis's partyyyyyyy!

too juicedddd !


listen to this:

can't sleep.

the rain sounds kind of soothing down to every last drop, it makes me kind relaxed but it starts to remind of other things of well. as I started to lay here, I keep moving around, can't seem to be comfortable for the fact my mind running down memory lane.

I hate nights like this, because I seem to do so fine in the day,then all of a suden I seem to just get so weak minute by minute. so something about me; I'm super emotional, its crazy.

I lay here thinking about how I use to lay here with kevin. I mean I think this whole "relasping" stage is honesty me missing certain things, because I mean I miss him, but I'm quite sure its not like that anymore.. I get nervous when I think I smell him, or when I remember sleeping a certain way, to always find him next to me.

I think I miss having that comfort. I just miss tiny things, where I have always someone to text or call, when I wanted hugs or kisses, ill be ready for the next one 100%. when I want to pass time I can draw or write them a note. like jesus, I really want that again, but which the options out there, its never the same.

I want butterfiles, like the ones you use to get back in middleschool or highschool. I want to get the feeling right when you know the person is near, 1 minute away, outside your door, you melt and loose your breathe for a second. and it all creates this big mushy smile cooky feeling inside.

lust, temptation don't mean shit to me no more, all I want, is that pure real thing.

I don't want to cry, don't want to get depressed, but man this is hard, if god gave me one day to go back. I would go back to one of those days when I was hopelessly in love because ill tell you... that was the best time ever in my seventeen years of existence. <3

hey,

my computer is fixed and running, still dont know if my pictures are fine or deleted, if so i got to suck it up, if i'll be relieved. work was alright, i like the new managers. they are actually hella chill and nice, thank god.

this weekend will be nice:

thursday = club. SENSUAL SEDUCTION; glas kat.
friday = party.
saturday = wrk; get off at 8. rahrah's party ?! -_-
sunday= who knows.

i'm just a little bleh about blogging tonight. i keep coughing, and i have school tmmrw. at least at at 10, so i dont got to wake up so early.

i want to cut my hair, and dye it since matt gave it a "go". i need to get a fit, for thursday, and the suprise for someone. i still gotta pay my union dues. fail, i hella missed the deadline, so sometime this week i should go pay for it... hahaha, fuck.

here's some pictures from the club from friday:

sunday morning.

its ugly, outside. today just seems to dead and to stay home. i literally have no options, these past hours seemed like a fucking countdown for work, who the fuck schedules me to work six to midnight?! come on, fuck ruins my relaxing weekend. whatever, good i only have to close tonight for the rest of the week.

so how was your valentine's? i didn't do shit all day, it was more alone time for me, cleaned my room, took pictures down to redo my picture wall/closet. i found other pictures that made me laugh, some made me gasp, and some i just didn't really want to see.. but towards the night, i got melanie and alexa, then ben and mexican; christina. then head out to levi's house to find vince there too.

all the power was out over in glen cove, so when we were at levi's it was all candle light. we all layed on each other waiting for the blunts to be rolled up then end up burning, i got pretty lit haha! then fuckin' levi made all of us a feast! hella bomb ass popcorn, BOMB ass nachos and to top it off home made kettle corn :) how nice of that guyyyy. we watched some creepy... akward movie that i didn't understand at all. finnaly we called it a night, dropped everyone home.. i wasn't sure if i wanted to see gitano because i was so tired and still lit. and so when i got home, my dad was still awake, so i had to call it a night and pass out.

so i guess, melanie, alexa, christina, ben, vince and levi was my valentines for the night, and i thought i was going to see blaine : but i knew he be too tired. i had a good one tho!

i spent time with my mom today, i felt like i really haven't had time with my mom so it was nice watching the filopino channel, and talking about random shit. and now shes asleep, and im here on the computer with nothing to do. my whole day is kilt by rain and work, but whatever i had fun this weekend with clubbing, felt like neg. school, and kick it.

i cant wait for next weekend. gonna club on thurs, party on friday, and who knows for the rest of the weekend, but it always to be crackin ! i got a suprise for a certain someone this week, which i should look up some shit now... so bye! goodluck for me for work today. hmph D:

happy valentines.

omgggg. im so coldd and tiredddd. here was the day:

wake up, irritated that I couldn't find another chick or at least some other company to come wif to clubbb.

burn, concord and shop wif mel. got the fitt, chill at mels, get ready & spilt. waited for alexis. we got like 30 mins late to vinces and burned, draaaaankk then got mookie aka alexis.

get there tad early, see jo hah ! lol ... chill wif them. get inside club wif almost calling it kilt bcas of shoesss. danced wif levi. denied hella dudes; says that one dude... which was actually cute ( "ayyy girlll what's your name see got a ssidekick what cho aim ? " ). met chris. felt hella better when mookie finnally got in. club got SHUT DOWN ! for someone tagging the fish tank. chill burned. got taco bell. chiled in herculesss, call it a night. jesusssss !

suppose to see lance, sean, or either alex, and them. gaaaaaahh. it was all goodd tho.

I wished I had someone there tho, at least everyone knew how I felt. understandablee. so teaser for nexxt time. made hella new friends. lol

next thursday ? sensual seductionnnnn. :]

no valentine. don't want one. im happpyy singggggleeee. hollerrrrrrrrr.

update: 5:16pm.
im tired as fuck, i think people will come over later. well see.

hmph.

its been a while. dont have time at all, since i basically go home and pass out. works been fucking lame, but easy. i forgot to throw out the trash in the breakroom -_-, fuck their gnna be like ADHJAHSAHSJAKLHSA!? lol. whatever i dont work till ... uhhh ill see on thurs. but im off till sat.

the past few days been good. i seen hella old friends this week and even my new ones. for example: mike, rolf, ben, sherilyn, ali, christy, brain, klecki, ADAM?, matt from vp, cyril, kent, earl, sam, alfie, skyler and more i cant think of.

shit. im getting tired. ill blog something more intresting later.

what to do..

fucking mondays suck, for the fact its like the start of a new week, school, tiem to time sched. to work and recovering from the weekend... this is bullshit ! but at least i'm off today right ?

last night was fun, "QUAD.", melanie, alexis, blaine and i had our dinner sunday making this shepards pie. helllaaaa bomb! :) the pie crust btw was fucking fail, but me and alexis figured that shit out and it worked out fineee. my dad ended up coming home at 11... which was kind of scary for the fact, blaine was rolling one and we were about to fire up the hookah... the weird part was he didn't say anything really. so its all good! after the pie and ice cream, we tac tac the car car, and went to alexis's and watched the chapelle show and reno 911 lit. haha.

everyone's currenty at work or at school, so i guess around 3; don's gonna stop by andhelp me figure out my car and cath up for a little. then after i'll meet up with blaine and melanie and etc and do whatever possible.

lifes pretty good, btw. CRACKIN! hahaha, :) club this weekend and party. valentines? dont want one, so its all goooooooooooood. update later nignog.

BTW!? did you know blink-182 is back together. oh my jesus, one of the bestbands of all time. FUCKING SHIT I been WAITING FOR SO LONG... and paramore this summer.

oh my god shoot me. :)

dear, (your name here.)

Come on, take a step towards me
So you can figure me out
I've been hoping and praying for a single way
To show you what I'm all about
And I know, and I know this is the only way of pleasing the crowds
But when this is over and done with and we walk away
There should be no doubts

So let's get a little closer now
Let's get a little closer now

You say, you say that we're all tied up
And wrapped around in useless, useless states of mind
But at the same time we're still young
We have the time to realize that we were wrong

Come on love run with me
Get the hell out of this town
So we can get a better feel for each other
I'll take you, back to, when you
Remembered how you used to
Just live your life a little for me
Take the time to let it go
Step away and watch me grow

:)

gruhh, already told you once,

i dont give a f-u-c-k. <333

gone 'head pick it, gone 'head pick it up, gone 'head suck it up

one last time.

the way i'm feeling right at this moment i'm completely in a up and down mood, it's quite tiring for my mind, body and soul.

i don't even know where to start explain the shit i'm going to say in the next few paragraphs, and thats pretty sad, because i been holding this in and wanted to say every last thing to your face but you know what there's no time for that shit.

ms. audrina miranda, oh my fucking god. for the fact you say that apparently i'm never in quote quote your blogs, stop playing fucking stupid. its so weird how this all started, this whole blog to blog shit it would have never happened if you never made a fucking dumb comment about someone's relationship ending up almost over a year, bitch i know you were fucking talking about mine and kevin's.

this past year all i can think about, how fucking stupid of me for ever becoming friends and trying to even make you apart of my life. for the shit i done for you, its so sad what i got in return. i never ever disliked or hated anyone in my life, as much as i fucking can't stand you. holy fucking shit, i'm literally one of the nicest people here in fairfield. you can ask anyone i swear there answer is i am one of the nicest people there. i have no drama, don't have probelms with anyone until i met you.

i'm not gonna lie, the time you and i were friends, you were god damn cool but as i got to know the real you, the uglier your personality/actions/just what kind of person you are got more and more. out of the eighteen years of my life, i never met a stupid, horrible, dirty, sneaky, selfish ass bitch ever. and holy shit i been through so much shit, and to be my queen of all hate thats fucking sad as hell. and just to know i even went down that path it fucking makes me sick to my stomach.

your the whole fucking reason me and kevin drifted apart. every once in a while the question that always pop in my head is that, if i never met you, i wonder if me and kevin would have been together till this day. you fucking took away the person i loved most. he was my fucking boyfriend for heaven sakes, even my bestfriend. before you said one time in your blog that you never phase me and that i'm stronger than that. and bitch, yes i am pretty fucking strong but just for the fact you pulled that shit behind my back, WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING? look now, you and kevin aren't even talking or whatever your relationship is with him. both of you guys are so fucking stupid for ever thinking you guys would have been together, but are you happy, you guys got your one minute of "love" ,pretty much worth it right?

its so funny how you say you and "chad" are so strong. because oh man, you were willing to cheat on sergio for him. you were willing to cheat on chad to go with morgan. you were willing to play chad and morgan to go fuck around with your bestfriend at the time's BOYFRIEND. bitch never fucking ever bag on other peoples past relationships when your past/relationship is fucking dirty as fuck. i feel so bad for chad, because god damn hes a good guy, and he has to deal with your fucking bullshit all the time. how the fuck does he trust you? i wish he can realize he can do so much better, its sad.

i'll say whatever the fuck i want. do whatever the fuck i want. this is what you wanted all along, drama drama drama, you can go ahead and write me another blog come back because i really don't give a fuck. because of you i can't fucking trust no one. fucking dirty ass bitch, i fucking can't believe you. go ahead go on with your so called "life". no one gives a fuck about you, the people at rod, people in fairfield you won't see them again after you graduate and oh yeah family don't count. fucking cry me a river.

but there is one thing i can thank you for. for making me realize it was time to wake up for reality. time to realize kevin isn't the only person out there, i know i can be loved and get treated the way, i deserve. take time to choose the people i meet so i don't end up getting another fucked up person brought into my life like you. to fucking realize that there is still a couple good people out there, because the friends i do have now, they are my everything and that their is hope after a shitty ass heartbreak.

right now all i want to do is throw up, scream, cry, laugh, break something, go smoke a cigagrette, give someone a hug, oh my god, anything. i'm just so sick of this. i'm fucking tired of holding a grudge, because i'm not that type of person and i swear i tried to let go.. but something kept holding me back. because i never been so hurt in my life. i never met people that i thought i cared about to fuck me over in the long run. what i did for people these past eighteen years, yes i do regret alot, but you know what shit happens right? i still don't understand till this day and from this day on, why do people do this? and for the people who just seem to get put in situations like that? its not fair, but i guess its time to bite the bullet.

karma is a real bitch, and everyone will get theres, even me. i will never know why do we like to hurt. i will never understand the mistakes i had and the future ones coming right at me. i will never know how love works and forsure never know why'd i had to go through this but in the long run, i love my life and i'll keep going like that till i take my last breathe on this fucked up world.


drop your lurkers, ill drop mine. and for a future refrence; if you have something to say about my friends, my past relationships and my life in fucking general since you like fucking shit up, fucking find me bitch, and i'll give you a piece of my mind. and youll never find a friend like me. your fucking lost, good luck with your shit.

bitch, bite me.

its freezing up in this bitch, today looks ugly, its sprinkling/raining and i got work later today, so if i'm scheduled for carts; that would be some shit.


talking to me or what not; this is what i'll say to you. don't tell me to shut the fuck up, for what you said i have the right to say something. don't fucking worry about me. keep your mouth shut about my present to my fucking past down to my friends, to esp. my past relationships. saying, drama this, drama that, bitch your the one with the big mouth talking like theres no tommorow.

just because you are turning a certain age, dosen't mean your growing up. your always gonna be the same girl in highschool, your still gonna be the same person you were last years. stop finding excuses to make yourself seem like you all of a sudden know what your talking about and think you grown some balls because don't act like we dont see you.

and btw no one has your name in our mouth, so get you facts straight. if someone needs to shut the fuck up, you need to start. and if you need to say something next time, come find me. its easier done and said.

quick blog.

this sidekick comes in handy.

today was long, super tireeddd.

- mel picks me up for school 9-10:50.
-alexa's house
did hair, chill, eat food.
-robert, david, alexis came over.
-6 of us went on an adventure !
-climb big ass moutain
-4 of us left ate at pelayos
-went to vallejo, met up wif ben, john, sam, felix, caitlyn, and don't remember that chicks name...
-watched john & ben play music (hella goodd!)
-chief 4 blunts !
-split and head home to watch mr and mrs smith.

had a good ass day :)
goodnighttttt.

unattractive.

here i am again; tired down to every bone in my body is fucking aching. my feet hurt because my non-broken into shoes. working midnight shifts sucks; because i have school early morning. i'm currently hungry, searching through alexas food cabinets. hahaha !


people, people these days. other people are just stupid. i want to shove some sense to other people. and tell the others to mind their own business. for the fact who the fuck gives you the right to bag on other peoples past relationships for the fact you have no fucking idea what they been through. oh wait, maybe you did know what they been through and decided to put yourself in the situation to kill the whole god damn thing. so next time you decide to make comments that someone relationship was weak? you need to start looking at reality, when your the one who is truly weak with a dirty past, never strong keep your mouth shut. that goes out to everyone.

no title, sucka.

my body is super tired, but my mind is awakke to the fullest, clutered with many thoughts to what is the plans for tommorow, new information someone gave me, confusion, and even what to wear tmmrw.

I'm a little fustraded. my problem is quite complicated. maybe its because im sick and tired of complaints and just want someone you care about a lot to just cheer up a bit. I have to admit, jealousy does play a role into this but in the long run that dosent matter anyone. I swear he can do so much better. he just needs to wake up. I just want to make him feel better, slap some sense into him. he got so much options to help him out but is not taking any advantage at all. how can you ask for advice when half the time you keep repeating the god damn same answer; "I can't. I don't know. I don't want to..." don't tell me that, I BEEN THERE TO HELL AND BACK. and lemme tell you something. be grateful she's still there, and at least she hasnt moved on and hooked up with your bestfriend... just please, realize you are so better off without her..

after a while finding anwers for other people, leads me back to my problems. I lay there thinking of past times, and how I remember I loved someone. I miss it. I have to admit I wish I can see the one I fell for... that I can see him again and again; but he's long gone.

I don't want a valentine this year, or at least I know I want to spend it with someone I know I have feelings for without feeling rushed or uncomfortable.. even with or without a v-tine, im down to club or relax.

im such a playerrr; my quote on quote radar is quite big. my list seems to be biggerrrr little by little. haha me likely though. well see who can lasttt.

goodnight.

happybirthdaymatthewwww !

sundaysunday.

the weekend is almost over; have to get ready for workfor a bit; i only have a 4 hour shift... usually i complain but i want to only work for so little. :P i'm soooo tiredddd frm last night. happy birthday marlon btw. his party wasn't too bad, it was actually crackin'.


i had hella fun. was lit. got some draaaaankk. chugged that shit. -_- so i was perkkinnn and lit at the partyy :) got a numberrr.. danceddd.... and yeah ! :))) after the party got shut down... we tried to hit up some other party but... that was fucking weak as hell ! so we called it a nighttt.

that makes me wanna have a open garage party and dance all night... but eh to much complications and shit.

some other shit on the side... was just eh -_-. got a little irritated some parts of the party; maybe jealously i suppose? but whatever, do what you gotta do, even though i know the things you coulda done to help yourself out.... you totally didn't take advantages of it at all... sad.. but thats how people learn. and other things... people need to grow up. and don't think theres any special treatment out here, its all the same.

k off, time to get ready. bleh :P