its been too loong.

again, i cant blog because my computer is lame, and wont let me use blogspot.

but anyways, so whats up with me?

im fuckin GREAT! literally, im happpy again. like i finnaly realized everything, and what really matters. my real friends. work. school and def family first.

im trying my best to understand whats offically going on with my life. i thought it would hurt a little more than i thought... but i guess not. i'm moving on, and that i really did try to fix and patch things up. like what hayley said, to cut my tears and to kill these fears. im so tired of thinking things will get better, cas i thought of we could get pass this, but i guess not.

and you were the one who said you still wanted to be friends at least, and yeah i dont see that, "yeah grow up." whos the one who needs to grow up. and if you do, then maybe sooner or later we can pass this up.

im excited for trips like santa cruz and i think in the winter to disneyland. i love my life.

and nothing can ruin it for me now.

im over this thing called love, i mean i cant lie and say that my love is totally gone for you, i just need to say goodbye one more time. and that i miss you, esp. when the little things we had, you know? and you can't say you don't miss them. cas a year is too long to forget.

THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON.

and i believe god wanted me to have my one year of happiness and love, with one of my best friends. and now its over i need to learn to do things on my own, and one day ill find my love again, how long it might take.

i do believe karma is real, and that people will get theirs.. even if its good or bad, we all get it. so dont think your the only one.

so love is over.
drama is done.
my life shall begin.
new friends, HELLA!
new boys ;)

and everything.

yaaaaay!