its been too fucking long.

since i bloggedd. my computer is all fucked up and man... where the fucking do i start.

i had so much shit to say these past weeks, but there was no way i the time. im fucking busy all the time, now i got school in the morning. work usually all day then at night is when i finnaly get to have my normal life. so fucked up schedule? i think so.

i hella learned hella shit this summer. growing up in general. i finnaly realized that love can actually hurt and make a difference in my life. i know now whos my real friends and who really never really cared. its just everything i needed before i get my life situated forsure.

i cant believe all this shit is happening all at once. its crazy. with all that past relationship shit. its like i lost hope, and im hella just disapointed. i thought i knew somebody i known for so long, and bascially fucking spent my past year with and now its like i dont know you. it makes me sad when you now yell at me and act like im some fucking asshole, think back if i ever done anything to you... i don't remember that i ever did anything. im sorry if your searching for a blame that you lost a friend or what not. ITS NOT ME, your the one who did this on your self. HELLA FUCKING SELFISH. and that goes for apparently people who say they care. i dont fucking get you.. but whatever. why waste emotions my breathe on you when your the one who dont deserve any of my feelings. you guys have fun, and good luck with everything. just remember, karmas a bitch. "if you wanna play it like a game, well come on, come on lets play."

so with guys in general... im sad. to see all these dudes getting stuck on girls games hella bad. -_- makes me want to slap them in the face and be like foreals. for me, i already know the game and im just sick of fucking dudes playin with my head. i really dont need this bullshit no more, geez. ill be here when your ready.

i really actually have nothing to blog really, since i bascially am not in the feel to blog... damn, i had hella good shit to say too. hahah. oh well.

last night, chillen with the ono crew... melanie, me, cyrill, mischelle, james, matt, ren, and kent. lmfaoo.. hella funny shiit.
woo


stop loss.. haha i shall blog later.