mutherfuckin solano.

haha im here in computer lab... on myspace and blogspot. HAHAHA. i can finnaly blog without any rush and blahblahblah.

so main topic... SANTA CRUZ!! im so fucking juiced, its not even funny.
offical list: me, alexa, jasmine, melanie, morgan, danny, don.
the people who might meet: kaite, B, & chadwic.
the maybes who need to tell me: david, jake & go-tie-buh.
SWEEEEEEEEEEEET.

anyways; so college? its easy. well maybe cas i did take easy classes this year, but its like a easy start, cas next semester forsure i will be the college girl i need to be taking math and english and maybe chem as well. shit, am i ready? but i think i can handle myself :)

so work too... is fucking alright, alot harder then ono in general, but i basically know EVERYONE at safeway and know me because im the "little mermaid" and sing the song too.. lol. its nice, so my work sched? this week HOLY SHIT. fucking tues and sat is bugging me. 6am-10am. then 3:15pm to 11:45pm? am i correct 8 hour dayyyys. i only officaly had one.. but shit i shall be balllliinnnn. :)

i havent been thinking much cas of the whole santa cruz deal, which im so happy cas im taking a break from everything. i want to get out of fairfield to get away from fake ass people, past relationship drama, family drama and everything you know. i need a breather. a time to just let everything go away. i wish i can go to a paramore show too, cas it helps me restart.. i know sounds corny right? but its my fucking therapy assholes.

im kinda liking this whole single idea.. even of course i wonder if i like being single more or relationships? i mean i only officaly had 2... cas i mean mike and i lasted for like 3 days cas i wasnt ready for this crazy thing. and kevin and i of course lasted for a year, and got me the feel of being in a relationship. so which is better? i crave for every little thing. i mean EVERY little thing. i miss having the text in the morning "good morning aeriel". i miss having the person who i was able to text whatever it might be, and even a random phone call without them thinking im weird you know? i miss some visiting me at home, and laying down with me talking about random crap and just getting a random bite to eat. and even... you know someone you can help my sexual fustration out. hahaha. is that one of the major ones?! haha i cant lie, it sucks. SEXSEXSEX. DAMMIT! hahah myvcard is long gone. and i neeedd somebody to helpppp mee..
hahaha

i think im becoming crazy. lmfao. jk. no im not, just the fact my mind and body is like drowning in that bullshit, im so jealous of couples or people who are like offically sexually active. haha im not. im in my pause. hahahahahah. holy shit. the bet better happen :))

so with everything else, i got nothing to say about it. im all good. and im happy.
i love my friends, and my life is a bit irriatating at times, but its time to get in reality and time to get ready to be a grown up. im about to be mutherfucking 18. its crazy. and im almost ready you know?

so sweeeeeeeet.

i shall find love sooner or later. ill get my sexual fustration out of the way sooner or later. ill be ballin more then youll ever be. i shall get started on being on the road to stardom.

holy fuck this is a long blog :)