i think... you might be slightly missed.

sitting here, being here, finally taking a break from this intense busy weekend is definitely is a breather. i'm lightweight tired, high, lost, and a tad bit confused.

friday night was exciting, going to blow up with over 15 people and plus meeting up with my cousin and his friends. i got to get rid of my dance crave and got to see a stupid show with people with giant egos. saturday, i basically function the day with only 3 tosin' and turin' hours, doing errans to attending jd's shindig. sunday, was filled with a couple hours of work, and going on a mission and getting blasted in vallejo, and i must agree... "how the hell do you do it? you never get any sleep."

so the weekend has been crackin', and chill, but with that said, alot more over floating thoughts have been hitting me also. i been upset about my poor spending habits down to that thing that was "the last thing on my mind."

i don't know what it is, or how do you do it. from the feeling of being completely frustrated and angry, to feeling akward and nervous butterflies, to the last feeling of being slightly missed. i don't know why till now, i'm still bipolar on the way i feel. i wish i could of took the time to tell you things thats been going on, the things i've witness and done, i want to show you it all. i need to also realize that i might be over thinking this, for all the countless hints for myself, i don't need to waste my time on something that doesn't matter anymore.

all i really do want, i think..... is the way were we were before things got complicated, to where feeling got developed.. to where we drove, sat and talked about things we kept in for so long. you know, the secrets you never want to repeat again.. i want to go back then and tell how much i think i made the risk worthy.. until we fast forward and knew it was too late.