eh.

my brain is currently in a state of nonsense, doing the most of thinking over the top. thinking of the things currently happening, thinking about the hopeless past, thinking about how pathetic i might be doing, this whole entire time.

i feel like lately my mood has definitely has fallen then it ever has. i been doing so good, i've been looking forward, thinking positive as hell, doing things that has been keeping me satisfied all a long.. but for some reason i felt like its all been taken away.

i feel like i been let down, feeling like i'm doing something wrong but i don't even know where to begin. i hate feeling like this, i hate it even more for the fact i don't know where the fuck it came from. i guess for just those random nights, i was just in the wrong place, at the wrong time.

for the reason of being let down, the things people do makes me wonder over and over. i absolutely hate being lied to, just thinking of past unexpected lies makes me cringe, its one of my worse nightmares. when promises are broken, esp. the ones right in your face, oh man, shoot me already. all i ask is pure honesty, to keep the bond of our friendship for heaven sakes, to keep the words that came out of your mouth kept? then just do it.

yuck, please give me something to be proud of again.