"aeriel, your becoming bad."

haha, really though? man, i'm no sure what i'm really looking for to say, but its bascially "whatever". i finnaly get to chill and relax and hang since i'm fucking off for once.
i work sunday = double shift, ALL DAY. S80 just that day,
monday, tues, off wed, thurs friday, saturday and sunday i work next week. FUCK.
like fucking around 200 somethang, just for that week,
god DAMN, i cant wait to see my check sooon. :)
imma be baaaalllllliiiiinnnn.

hahah! so im starting to realize things. everything in general.

boys for example, how much i really dont need to be wasting and making that the center of my world, i still am giving chances, and just letting it go on its own. if you want to talk to me, then talk to me :) if your busy, im def busy.
damn i wont see you till, the 11basically. DAMN. 9 days? a week?!
DDDDDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMNN. haha oh well. more fun for me.

im starting to think everyone needs some growing up to do, dosent matter if its just being college bound, listening to your parents, doing chores or anything... JUST GROW UP.
tech, i know i have plenty of mine to do, but please do yours as well.
im just trying to have fun, and you dont need to make things worse.... like i mean come on, dont like somebody? then don't talk to them, and dont lie you wanted to hang out with them at one point. maybe jealously involved, we believe. damn its okay, you got plenty of other people too.
i still love you tho, just dont be rude about it.
cas i mean first of all, WHAT DID I DO TO YOU? nothing i believe so dont have to act like your fucking cool. yup.

i still miss and think about the others just hopeing their still okay, but just now isnt the time. i just hope we can just swuash and just pass up all this shit. cas i know we are quite better then that yeah? just a bit disapointed and maybe just lost some respect, but i'm still willing to try if you are too. but when that time comes, you know where to find me.

so i know im not perfect, i might sound like a hypocrite, and maybe you guys were all right, i needed to explore and actually feel how this all goes, but i know fore sure this summer will be over, i'm starting a new me, i cant be doing this all the time, its fun, but... eh its not me. i'll start focusing what i need to, which reminds me i need to reg, which i should do tommorow... but yeah.

today was hella fun, fucking "chaaaddwiccc and miniii c"
those poptarts CRACKIN, and coke. mm yum? yeah weird.
but hitman was fucking crazy too.


now im tired, imma pass out and sleep goooooooooood.
loves and pray for people and things.


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