this headache

just keeps getting worse.

my hands smell like garlic cas i chopped some up.. and now its there forever. lol ok maybe for the next few days but oh well.

i feel maybe a little better.. but def not the best i can be.
i'm starting to give up with the boy deal, and maybe put my mind in a place where i can focus on things i need to do on my own, and not in other peoples hand.

excercise and get fresh air more.
get that job, and hopefully acting again.
i want a new style, and a new hair cut.
i wanna meet a couple more people
and reunite with a few.
i want to skate around the block and practice the tricks i used to kick ass at.
i want to spend more time with the people i def. care for, and hopefully they feel the same.

i just want to refresh and take risks.

and give up bad habits im gaining.
some certain foods, maybe certain people, maybe some certain cravings.
i feel smarter. and proud of myself of relalizing things and just.... not to sound corny, but life.

i mean its hard. and i know i will cry a couple more nights, and i will be emotional for the next few days, but i think i can live. or hope.

just hopefully i can do this.