damn.

so i havent really wrote in here because of reasons : i am lazy. i don't have time. computer is kinda stupid. and i just... dont want to.

but to tell you the truth i probably will from now on.

my weeks my months my life so far after graduation has been hectic.

I j u s t w a n t a n e w s t a r t.

i mean. i feel like i havent hang out with my best, best friends in like forever.

i feel not loved and not cared for in so long.

i need a fucking getaway. maybe some new fun. maybe new people in general.

i dont want to move on or to get on with my life. i liked it how it all use to be.

plainly simple.

everyday was maybe quite the same but at least a day to remember.

i want things to go back. i hate crying i hate stressing and feeling fustrated at everything.

i miss just you and i, dammit.

i feel like i fucked up and my world is turning almost upside down.

im honestly trying to make myself be happy and let things go. but its so fucking hard. your life seems alot more easier without me. great. i feel like crying.

but honestly why waste emotions on you.

sometimes its hard to except things and stop thinking of stupid shit that you might be moving on.

i just want to drop the question.

when will you be ready.

im sick of dudes like fucking flakes. and fucking liars. and fucking everything.

AND I WONDER... why i never wanted to be in a relationship back then.

because someone always gets hurt. i never wanted to develop feelings for another cas, look where am i now. i cant fucking sleep another night without crying or thinking about you.

FUCK YOU. i hate this stupid shit.

i just want you back in any way possible.

oh yeah i won a lion first T at dennys earlier tonight.

tiiiiiiiiiiiiight, and love guru sucked.

it sucked like how some people cant say anything if they dont want to come or cant show up.

FLLLLLAKE.

i love alexa by the way. shes one of my main besties.