its been toooo long.

so basically i havent blogged in hella long : aahh which sucks, but its a good thing.. cas i havent been going on the computer in hella long... which is good being my new year res. was suppose to be that i dont go on the computer all the time. yay! but sometimes i wish i can at least blog my memories.

my dad just walked into the room... so im waiting till hes out of sight to write private SHIT.


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well yesterdayyyy was pretty funn, my weekends are becoming hella fucking chill, which is a good thing yeah? maybe next weekend we can spice it up. bwhahaha.
who came over was: kevin, mike, morgan, matt, andrewbabygirl, davvvidd, oliver, hillary, cj, and don.

first we went to see what was wrong with my bmw window, finding its fucking broken so we gotta buy a new one, and i doubt it willl get fix for a while.

then we headed to my house, chilled, rock band, and hearing them wrestle upstairs. hahaha.
had to drive cj home... then watched movie: land of the dead. but i couldnt watch it fully since we had to drive andrew, hillary oliver and david home. which was okayyy.

im starting to realize about friends and stuff. cas i mean ever since freshmen year of course i meet people and etc. i had probably different clicks and what not. i cant always open myself and start calling people my "best friend" if in the long run they aren't. its hella pathetic.

i seriously shouldnt have toooken people in. cas im stupid and always so nice and happy to have new people. i remember the first time i talked to melanie to hang out. to krizel. it seems to all end at one part. theres maybe a lightweight LITTLE bit connection still. it sucks cas i mean you spend your days thinking this girl is amazing. to the day what the fuck happened, i feel like i just meet her yesterday. im starting to get sick. and im def. keeping myself more sheltered and quite about shit.

im just ready for people who are willing to take the time to actually be MY FRIEND.. then finding every little new thing and move on. im sick of getting used. and half the time it goes like that. so bascailly whatever, if they have better shit to do, then i do too. because i got people here who actually care.