tired and being confused is a big no-no.

i mean i already have enough shit on my mind, i dont need anymore.
like confusing about that certain someone... confused how come all of a sudden... wonder if anyone else cares?

soo.. i'm just tired of being lied to. like i dont get it, text me this week talking we shall hang and crap... and then all lastnight,text till like freakin 3 something, telling me offically we are "talking" then tell me these sweeet things, and the day we planned to hang... i get flaked on .. again.
like really man, i don't need another boy worrrying me with things like that. i just want to be happy. and im still willing to leave a few more chances..

hmm.. so why now? what made you wanna see what was going on? i'm lost, the last thing i need the person im trying to run away from is coming back. is weird. i want to fix things, but thats not fair i did my fair share of trying to make things work, even as friends, im just not ready to go back and saying hello.

and about these other peoples? im lost, but just curious about what they think, i think im reading the signals wrong.

i think i am alot.

can i just get paid now.

what i still need in this lame boring summer.
girls day out. disneyland. roadtrip. santa cruz. PARTY. get DRUNK. finnaly find that somebody who can keeep my relaxed and out of trouble.

someone who is actually try to hang with me. daaaaaaaang.

imma sleep.
i got work at 4-close.
with garvin, fucking great.

im offically

FULL, "rice", talking to somebody<3, gonna be rich, and shall be happy.


i haven't blogged, but too bad, im a busy lady. hahaha. im hella fucking tired right now, but i'm still awake cas i want to blog reaaal quick then lay down and pass out.

i work hella days at ono now, fucking lets see.. im working 22 hours this week. i better get hells moneys. i kinda like it there, its easier too. but i wish it was a tad closer, gas is killing me. speaking of work, i almost died today cas of cyrill scaring the shit out of me -___-
and thanks don, alexa and morgan for hanging out at ono for hella long. freee food!

go home, take a shower, hang with alexa and don for a bit then hang with melanie. and HMM!? hahaha.

things that go for anything with feelings and boy thangs... hahaha. im happy where i am, like i do wanna talk to somebody, with the feeling i can get hurt again... or i can just let it beeeeeee. haha
but offically agreed, we are talking. hahaha !
its weird seeing, like old exs.. or somebody you use to talk to esp when like you arent even "friends" anymore, not even a acknowledge your there. helloo. at least act like your not mean, but whatever.

i just want to be happy, and i am.
thank you too all the people who is helping me through this. :)

confusion is eating my brain.

and plus my body is craving for actual food. hahaha
i hardly dont eat much anymore, its starting to remind me of old past habits..... but oh well.
i think ill look for food or something after this bloggg.

so.. confusion is the word that is bothering me.. lol
i dont get a couple of things about this whole situation im in.. but oh well.
my head hurts, so please stop it!
imma take things slow.. and let them come to me, correct?
haha if you don't know what the hell im talking about that is tooooo mutheerfuccckin bad. '

but after a while it will start making sense.. and
so i wanna drink today or something.. or something quite fun...
shit. and im hella tired cas my sleeping hours thingyy are hella fucked up.
SHIT!

i hate my phone can someone buy me a side kick?
hhaha daaaamit.
i work tommorow :( but just for 4 hours. and supposly it goes hella fast. yee!
and with jaramey i wont be bored. haha. even if hes kinda eeh.. loco

hahahaha

ian you are right.

SOOO CRAVING FOR MORE. DAMN you. lol

butterflies ... ?

are flying in circles in my stomach.

haha.

im feeeeling good. im happy. and im starting to smile for the right reasons again . :)
things are getting are better, thank you god.

so school is gonna be hetic so goodbye ono. i cant stay there.. so bye!
im kinda happy but sad... but well.. see.. damn.. hahaha

so today... was weird. i saw don at coston. lol santa claus... drove forever my gma and my dad.. places.. but i got half a tankkk.:D played with my guniea pig on my grass... that lazy bitch. -__- hhaha jk i love him.

and..... :D ice cream. safeway; ruins. saw little don there. went back home.. watched it.. cuddle. wizardsofwaveryplace, rob and big... then goodnightttttttttttt ..... hahahaha. :)
im happy!

don came over and chatted.

and now im on the phone with my nigga ian...

haha and i shall sleep soon :)
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm,
mwah!