days like this don't make sense. the fact is all gloomy, and rain being definitely bipolar, its hard to say if i should be a lazy son of a bitch, that will rethink thoughts that haven't been touched in days or either be awake and active and say, FUCK THE WORLD and let me out of this god damn house.
i'm a tad bit confused. i still think about you, even with my thoughts of foggy answers, its all mumble jumble. i wish i just had a straight defiant answer about this whole thing. i try to re-track my steps and remember whos actually winning the race. every time i get a positive outlook about someone, i try to remember what can knock that extra point off.
people don't get it at all, times like this is such heart racing dilemma, it has the touch of enjoyment, lust, satisfaction, temptation, but all pure selfishness that can get karma biting you right in the ass. i wish i was just satisfied with ONE thing, and move on to enjoying it... but of course, it never works like that.there is always something wrong , always something missing, and you have to keep going because you want more.. more, in fact it keeps you wanting to add more confusing spice into the game.
i wish you, you would give me the time to show you who i am, to push all those god damn stupid reasons why you and me can't work. why someone can be such a fucking game killer, when he shouldn't even be one of the reasons why.
i wish you, could stop confusing the hell out of me, being fucking bipolar to the fact one night you want to act like everything is just you and i, and when you get that chance, you don't take that advantage to the fullest.
i wish you, the rest of you, could give a fucking good reason why... why you WANT to spend time with me, why out of all people you want to try with me. i don't get why me, and why now?
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