here we go again.

I throw all of your stuff away
Then I clear you out of my head
I tear you out of my heart
And ignore all your messages
I tell everyone we are through
Cause I'm so much better without you
But it's just another pretty lie
Cause I break down
Everytime you come around


So how did you get here
Under my skin?
I swore that I'd never let you back in
Should have known better
Than trying to let you go
Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you
Is so addictive
We're falling together
You'd think that by now I'd know
Cause here we go go go again

You never know what you want
And you never say what you mean
But I start to go insane
Everytime that you look at me
You only hear half of what I say
And you're always showing up too late
And I know that I should say goodbye
But it's no use
Can't be with or without you

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i really just don't know what it is. i'm still confused as hell, still lost as fuck. but i'm starting to pick everything up little by little. like i told josh, i always seem to search for advice, and always, have it right here. i never really understood, why i'm here, feeling like this... and theres just something i'm still looking for.. and for some reason, i think its there somewhere; but i'll be waiting and let it come to me.