reading.

i just read my blogs from the past 3 months. i laughed my ass off, and i hella got flashbacks reading all of it, and i admit i cried a bit.

and honestly, i never knew how much i wrote, and some of the shit i actually wrote. man, oh man. i have some intense feelings.

for example.... on april 26 i wrote...

" i hate liking someone, i hate the whole concept of being in a relationship and i sure fucking do hate thinking this whole" love" thing will come in play sooner or later. but you know what, shit fucking happens. and things happen for a reason, and im thinking now, there must be a reason why you are here. why i'm here feeling like this. i dont want to cry any more, i dont want to feel confused, because i love feeling like i have everything under control, because i will admit............. "