hello and goodbye.

i'm exhausted as hell, sitting here just got home from work. my feet are killing me, felt like i spent the whole day walking around disneyland without of course the excitement of spending a million dollars on food and random items, riding dope ass rides, and the many random faces walking and running into you. i'm tired, and i'm so glad i'm off the next two days, i'm ready to relax.

when i was driving back home, just thinking about random stuff, and i realized what date it was today. may nineteen twothousandnine. officially two years ago, kevin made it officall between him and i; remembering the exact place, time and words that were said. its crazy, because it never really hit me how long ago it was. it would of been fuckin' TWO years if shit was still intact.. and thats crazy long. i started to kind of think just random good ass times we had together as boyfriend & girlfriend, and just being cool ass friends, but somehow it all got poured down the drain.

i mean things happen right? and i'm really ain't complaining. i learned alot of things; relationships, real friends, drama, people, me, and love overall. people tend to say love is stupid, and "its not real". i can understand where people come from because half the time all you get is jealousy, obsessiveness, needy, stupid arguments and the trust can be unbearable. but i believe overall, love is amazing. i have no words to explain how it works, and how it feels, but shit; it fucking feels so damn good even with all those horrible shit in the end. i wouldn't mind to find love again, but thats till then. people just need to have faith, because one heart break shouldn't kill the way you think about this so thing called, "love".

i'll admit, i still have love for him, and still miss him once in a blue moon, but i mean... things happen for the better. i love the friends i have, the way my family is now, i have someone who makes me completly happy, &&& i'm such better and stronger person. & honest to god; my life is offically good, and i'm trying to stay postive through all the things i'm going through. i make mistakes and will make them, and i admit i became a tad bit lazy being a good friend and person this past month; but i'm ready to pick up my slack and take complete control.

and i wish you the best, and goodluck with whatever your heart takes you.

*thanks for good times, laughs and memories.

& with that said... i been moved on over & done with, and so better off.