my feet hurt, and my body is hella tired. i have hella hot top ramen, and green tea next to me. i think i'm gonna sleep early tonight, and just do some thinking. & probably change my layout of my blog.. since i have nothing better to do.
safeway; was its usual. carts, bagging, "hello, how are you? do you need any help out?". it was kinda sad seeing jessica in the bakery, josh in deli, yvonne and vince in the booth. i feel like i really tried my best working at safeway, and did so much better then probably 4 of them put together, but whatever, at least i have a job right?
i got to see matt today. he suprised me, and even put carts back in the parking lot, thanks faggot. we chatted about things.. things that kind of hurt, things that made me happy, things that reminded me of past things... but this time it seems different... alot different, meaning maturity wise its at its fullest. being not lied to, being told straight up, is so relieving even if the truth might hurt a little bit. i really felt like, running away, i felt like throwing up, i felt like crying but ... i didn't even do any of it. which, suprises me so much. i grown up so much from how many years ago, i probably woulda cried and pout like a little baby hearing all of this shit, but i took it all in and tried to see it from his point of view.. and remembering where i stood before..
things are good. i feel good, alot better then i have in a while. im changing the way i think, the actions that will be taking place. the way how i look at everything, and to take full advantage of what i have already, because in the long run... somehow it makes sense why everything is like this.
im happy, and that all that matters.
and i think im ready for whatever might be coming at me.
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