i coulda went to the club tonight at whisper.. but im just too bleh cas of lastnight, plus i need to save myself money.
im just in an irritated/outof it type of mood right now. i just kinda want to stay home and just have me time. relax and just i dont know.. just let me breathe. just the fact im home im starting to think about shit and its pissing me off.
im stressed about fucking money shit, about how i could be saving money for a car or something.. but i got to pay back bank of america, so i dont get some stupid finacial record that can fuck up things for me that lasts almost 5 years. fucking 400 dollars. then theres paramore, which irritates me. because why didnt i get my fucking tickets earlier.. me and sherilynn are just like omg. well at least i know im fed up. the seats are so far.. so why should we pay like 90 dollars.. we are starting to think maybe lawn seats are just better for us.. i mean only 10 dollars. we can fucking be drunk and high and bring blankets and food and just like idk chill and listen to the music... which i dont mind.. at least i went right? and then that means we can bring hella people to just chill. its a nice idea, but i know ill be a tad depressed.. but theres more shows.. and its not like i been to everyone since 06. :)
and next show i can just be on my game and buy them hellas quick.
twin is telling me we should go on a picnic. and i love my twin's company so im down! i want him to take pictures of me. lmfao his photography is fucking so good. i love it, if you look up his shit on flickr... his old sac stuff is hella cute. oh yeah, our bonfire idea tommorow is out for the fact it might fucking RAIN. what kind of bullshit is that?! im so mad.. but whatever.. well just plan one.
ugh, relationships, guys. all that stuff.. is all UGH. i dont even know what word im searching for... im just kinda like i want to, but i dont. and im sorry if im starting to be on and off on everything. im just not sure if i wanna settle, if i even wanna talk to anyone. everyone is just too confusing and im tired of it to be honest.
theres one who had me at one point, and then decides when he wants to talk to me. i dont get you, but... ugh you are god damn sexy. and i still wonder about that night at jack and the box.... theres another who.. gives me a challenge but at time you are just as confusing as the first time... and for some reason thats what i like... and you got fucking cute too... and the others kinda hint what they can offer.. and i dont know if they want to "talk" to me or just want something.
ugh aehaldhsdklahkjdlds;kghkl;ds. i dont know anymore. i just need time to breathe and think.
well heres some photos my twin took at old sac for his photo class.. ... aint it good?! my twin is hellas good. good job twin!
i crave for something simple like this.
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