free pancake day

I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
And with my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me

Yeah
Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Lock the doors
Cause I'd like to capture this voice
That came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this

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today was pretty chill. get ready for school; and get a phone call from levi asking me to ditch school to come down and hang/chief/eat with him, ben, ali and sherilynn. got them at the georgia safeway, head out to cheif and then get our free pancakes at ihop. head back to fairfield, get mel's check frm mikhail. fucking tired as fuck... " YEA BUDDY..." that fucking song... anywho i pass out around 4 and didnt wake up till like 7-8. i was like holy shit... oops. hahaha.

so things lately has been good, i mean i have my little bumps in the road this week is highly stressful. from past crushes to current crushes. its hella just like fuckk go away. past crushes; just fucking kilt, make me understand why people should never trust anyone because people have big ass mouths and shit. FUCKING NOT COOL. and with current crushes, i dont understand for me being hooked. i mean i came along way from last year, no one was able to make me feel the way i do now.. its kind of weird and akward.. and i think i kind of like it?

but im still not sure if im ready it get back into that mess, having that past relaspe, it make me overthink too much shit. but to be honest.. i'm ready to settle down.. but of course with the right person...

and hes out there yeah? well see...

i hope to get to see .... sooon. because something about that friday night just got me.. insane. fuck.