you know what, just leave it at that.

its been there.. all along on my mind. and let's say, i'm starting to get really sick and tired of it.

boys in general, fucking sicken me. its like i was finally doing good moving on, finally getting use to the fact i'm on my own again, and for some retarded reason i get myself back into a situation i didn't want to get into.

this whole "liking" someone situation, is harsh and leads you to questions i think no one can answer. why do we always do this? we play games, and just do stupid shit for one good of a second, to just FEEL good. its like, you start forgetting what your getting yourself into, AND FUCKING OTHER PEOPLE AS WELL.

GROW UP. if you happen to like someone, or even start feeling you have attraction, please be careful for you actions, because you get people wrapped up in your stupid game, and end up getting hurt off of every little thing.

jealousy builds up, and butterflies come up uncontrollably. its like holy shit, i'm back where i started. i mean... like I HAVENT LIKE ANYONE... I GUESS... LIKE THIS IN SO LONG, i feel like im 12 again.

and the worse part is... i feel like i can't stop, even how badly its hurting me.

fuck denial, temptation, and esp. you.