georgiaaaaaa on my mind.

so why are you in my mind?
you are so confusing me... oh lord. :(



last night,
kickit for kt's birfday. BEASTIN AT BEER PONG... 7 CUPS IN A ROW.
FIIIIIIIREEE! it was crackin. maybe a little thing and there with georgia. which kills me.

work was way tooo intense. 9 hour shift? nigga. man. it was like lived in safeway. but i had fun, crackin people at work :) hahaha.

anyways, so georgia. mutherfuckin georgia.
i dont understand why i always seem to do this, i mean why does all the "good" guys seem to be... GAY. taken. or just dosen't seem like its yours. i seem to always put myself in situations... where i can see it can go.. or i mean i could be just second guessing myself. but yesterday, just seem to be good. i think i had baby butterfiles. and i admit, i think its starting to get bigger then more i wait.

i get more fustrated... the moer i think about it. today at work.. thats all i fucking thot about. WHY WHY...... why do we like to hurt so much? shit. cas thats what you get when you let your heart win. lmfao. paramore. yeah corny... but true.

its weird, cas someone once told me. its good to try something new. i mean my typical type. yeah yeah your typical ryan sheckler, white boy yadadadadad. but this time around. WHAT!? i never knew... it would be down to this to tell you the truth. what is my heart doing? haha im scared im just gonna repeat processes i did before. and its not fair. NOT FUCKING FAIR.

JESUS CHRIST. what do i do.
but i let things flow... and see how it goes.
because i mean things happen for a reason right?






georgia.