hand clapping. head shaking

so right now; im hella tired and bored out of my mind.
i got work around 5 and close at 9 and probably wont be home till 940ish.

im currently listenig to the jonas brothers .. which they are playing tonight at concord :( lol.. and i got work. fuck. mann how sad, i cant visit my nick. tsktsk. lol :( how sad. ANYWAYS

yesterday tired as fuck waking up at 7 because of solano bullshit. i really hate college already i miss rod already. EW.

haha wtf my little cousin is ripping everything off my wall. NOO!

i been sad lately. how offically... i found out i do love someone. and that i do miss them badly. and it sucks, because after founding that all its like... i dont know.. they treat you back like.. they want you out of their life but they dare to make a statement like "i want to be friends still".
FRIENDS don't fucking do that.

they don't text you a couple word answers, they don't take you off their myspace, they don't ignore you when you try to comment them & then they have time to comment other people, they don't say hella rude shit when your trying to spend time with them.

i just hate how this is all happening now. the person i thot would be there for me all the time. you know.. its just you had so much hope .. and like you thot nothing will go wrong, because you thot they would have never leave you.

and just the fact. you thot they wouldn't given up that easily. i thought you had more than that.. but i guess i was wrong.

it sucks to hear fucking convos taken place.. about how stupid i am. and how i made a mistake. and how my mom has to always ask me WHAT REALLY HAPPENED. and how she thinks he have moven on. i hate this.

i just want my fucking old life back. i just want my old fucking friends back. i just things to be simple.

shit. fucking god, WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS BULLSHIT. i never did anything wrong, and tried to keep myself a good person as possible. im trying to here to be happy and move on. but fuck.. i cant. why cant i just get over it. i hate how i actually fell in love. because all i got my self into is a stupid joke.