7 things.

1. hella tired.

2. happy.

3. rem-i-ni-sing.

4. im thirsty

5. mad that i gotta wake up early.

6. have plans for this week :)

7. i miss you.

ever since friday, sleeping at 6... and then later waking up at 8 then sleep again at 3... to wake up at 7.. my sleeping time is FUCKED up. ahaha. nooo!

so my day was basically, wake up for church, then eat at great wall; good bonding time with family LOL. then go home... see kevin and mike for a bit, it was weird but im getting less sad everytime ( is that a good thing ? maybe so.).

leave right after to hang with alexa. play rock band while she gets ready. we go off to the mall, see andre and get her bag. walk to visit kt and try to buy shoees.... and so negitive... lol.. see xavier and guy hang with them a bit and then see jc and hang with him... then pass and decide to walk into anchor blue... to get myself in a fucking weirdest situation i been in.

i honestly, hate fighting with morgan. and after what i heard today makes me fucking shitty and makes me feel like it was my FAULT. but WAS IT? i dont think so. so be stubborn and whatever. i hate how he lies and i hate how he acts like he was right. whatever. really then. YOU DONT GIVE A FUCK? haha maybe my mom was right, that you need to learn how to grow up. whatever. ill just wait it off. because I DO give A FUCK about you, and want to fix things because it was one of the stupidest shit we ever went through. but if your gonna act like that then why fucking bother.

"i would pick you over him anyday, and he should know that."-alexa.

i see later don and kt at my house. go to taco bell go back home.. and then mike, christan, jordan, roland, and matt come down to kick it for a bit. it was funny. i like those people they make me happy.

chill in my room, look at the pics from friday... myspace.. then don and alexa head home.

im starting to get the hang out of all of this.

im gonna let kevin talk to me when he wants to, im tired of trying to be friends or whatever we are. i just want to at least he cares, im so confused by the way he texts to other people, but when he sees me, he acts like a fucking dick. i miss him alot tho, in every way. my boyfriend and just my friend.

and now im scared my mom hates him. but i can see why, because it feels like we wasted our time sticking up for kevin, and me too. going through all that bullshit.

i hope things get better.

seriously.

ps: im not ready to move on or anything. so dont worry, im not gonna all of a sudden flirt and do this and that with guys, cas do you honestly i'mma give up that easily. i still love you dude.