grown and sexy.

here's from thursday breaking point's event: hella last minute random trip of wanting to go, it was weak overall, but it was chill for the most part. mel, jenn, vince, mookie, ana, tina and i went. so here you go:

cheers to the past, present and future; this one's for you.

You're throwing everything you have at me
Cheap shots, low blows, will you ever let it go
You're so pathetic, give it a rest
You're not gonna win, you're never gonna

You love the sound of your own voice
And the crown of death upon your head, come on
You and all your royalty, on the edge of infamy
You're going to taste my fist

You're so good at stretching the truth into a sugar coated lie
Everyone takes a bite
I have been dining with the enemy
It was a wolf in sheep's clothing, now it's so clear to me

I've had enough of your games
If your not trembling you'd better be
Cause we're gonna be the end of you
I've had enough of your games
I'm gonna show them who you really are
I can tell you right now, it wont be pretty

I can't convince anyone, anything
Provoking the anger of, a jealous god
Still you spin a web of lies, fear, lust, pride, greed and shame
You said no one, oh, you said no one escapes the pain

I've had enough of your games
If your not trembling you'd better be
Cause we're gonna be the end of you
I've had enough of your games
I'm gonna show them who you really are
I can tell you right now, it wont be pretty

I'm a coward not a fighter, disguised as a lover
In disguise, in disguise
For so long now, you held me down
You held me, you held me down
You held me down
You held me down for so long
But its not gonna last
Cause I can see right through your beautiful eyes

I've had enough of your games
If your not trembling you'd better be
Cause we're gonna be the end of you
I've had enough of your games
I'm gonna show them who you really are
I can tell you right now, it wont be pretty

You're throwing everything you have at me
Cheap shots, low blows, will you ever let it go
You're so pathetic, give it a rest
You're not gonna win, you're never gonna

oh i wish.

i'm sleepy, tired, just mostly eh, chill. haha, its a nice feeling, not overworked, wasn't stuck home, just got to... relax, finally.

i been looking around and seeing people's stuff for gradnight, school stuff, talking about senior shingdigs and what not. and i'm so jealous of everyone. i miss highschool, maybe rod, even though it was super gay being in there... but i have to admit, school was dope. i miss the class of 08'. i miss lunch and i miss those windy hallways, and just seeing and hearing all those things it really just makes me sad.

ms gordon's class eating string cheese and hearing sex weekend stories with alexa, gino and jake. planning random trips and taking/making cool ass photo things in third period. have random and hella funny lunch times. laughing my ass off in video production with gay ass mr. jefferies. throwing paper shaving into mark's hair in mr. ferrrrrg's class. jesse providing me aderol pills in hella gay ass math. and getting scared and raped by andre in "laaaaaaaaaaaaaanndeeels" class. and dope ass passing periods crackin' up over stupid shit, and hella body heat in cj's giant ass umbrella.

i'm super jealous of all the vallejo schools and etc, they get to go to L.A and different parts and just do hella fucking dope shit with their class, and while at rod, we only got to go to great america for senior trip. and had fucking gradnight at school, that i didn't go to at all. and all these people are so lucky and half of them aren't even taking it all in. i'm like what theee, man if our school got to do that... it woulda been dope as fuck. i wish i got to go to different theme parks and go to different things like that with everyone...

if i could re-do highschool all over again...i wouldn't miss it for the world.

and...

the blogging feels blank, nothing really to say.

butterflies are in bloom, embracing every touch, kiss, and just spending time with you makes those butterflies go insane. i'm not going to lie.. those next 4 days is going to feel like 4 long weeks.