b r e a t h e .

This is surrender
To a war-torn life I've lived.
Scars and stripes forever
In need of change I can't resist.

No need to hide anything anymore.
Can't return to who I was before.

I can finally breathe.
Suddenly alive.
I can finally move.
The world feels revived.

This long of a struggle
Finally opened up my eyes.
Revolution's not easy
With a Civil War on the inside.

No need to hide anything anymore.
Can't return to who I was before.

I can finally breathe.
Suddenly alive.
I can finally move.
'Cause I realize.

and

life has been very good, and i wouldn't change it for anything.

and if i wanted to tell you what has been happening... i wouldn't... because you should of just been there right next to me, but its definitely your fault.

and for everything else? you people are oh too funny.

stolen.

yuck. yuck. yuck.

my head is all mumble jumble right now. i'm so lost and fustraded i want to rip something apart.. okay.. well i'm not that angry, i'm just bleh. its just all the paramore concert coming up, this never ending search of finding last minute tickets.. its just too much for my obsessed paramore mind.

its getting really hot and stuffy in my room, and its not helping my headache. today was chill, and random. i got to spend the end of the day with poodle and melanie, on my search for my fail ticket search. "get out of my face!" i also got to see jeremy ( jeremy, you are one hell of a person. i fucking love your funny ass ahaha.) , ben, nick, marliynn, tyler, nessi, and later melanie and i got to catch up chadwic and i also saw alexis from afar. haha.

so now i'm pretty much chillen, posted here on the computer, still on the search for my tickets. chatting it up on aim, and trying to prepare my loan speech to my favorite bankers in the world. i'm pretty much sickly right now. nothing physically or health wise, i'm sick mentally and a tad bit sick emotionally. its just the fact how people are, esp. over the years, you see where people are.. and its like you wonder what the fuck their thinking.

i hate hearing about fucking rapists and fucking crazy ass people doing some dumb ass shit. i'm sick of fucking seeing fake ass relationships and dirty ass people thinking their in so called, "love". i def. don't know how the human mind works, but its pretty fucking insane.

when you give me a good reason why you do the shit you do, and just involve yourself in things that don't make sense, then you got me. till then, fuck you and your dirty nonsense.