tell me why...

i still don't know why i still even try to fix these things with people. i know and realize what the hell they do to me, but for some reason, corny as it sounds... my heart, my mind wants to try at least a couple more times before i call it quits.

misunderstood.

i wish i wasn't so god damn nice.

the new thing these days is to be a total bitch or a dick.

i guess i have to join the crowd and start being a complete asshole.

i'm so disapointed in you, you and YOU.

i thought you were something better than all that bullshit...

but come to conclusion...you'll never be what i thought..

i hope your happy with your "real" friends.

i'm sorry i was such a shitty friend to live up to your expectations.

i love you, and good luck with your shit.

ps: even with this said,

you know i never took back the shit i said:

i'm always here if you need me.

get out of my head, please.

i think i have a case of bad luck and i'm not liking this one bit.

i need to remember to breathe and stay calm. all these useless thoughts aren't going anywhere. i feel like i forget them, but of course they sure do like to come back.
i definetly suck at being careless. i wish i can forget and move on easily as you all.
i need to stop being so god damn nice.

oh well, here is to another day to try again.

random update

all i want to know is, who are you 7up guy?

i hope i get my e x t e r n s h i p papers done,

and find out my schedule soon.

i hope my car passes smog or i'm doomed.

pop's in 6 days.

why do i feel like i finally feel less stressed?

whatever it might be, don't go away.

i like this.

"PICK ME. PICK ME. PICK ME."

i have too much shit going around in my head. good and bad. this mix should be interesting.

dear blog,

i'm sorry i haven't wrote to you in so long. i don't have time to come down and jot things down, even though... i got a shitload to explain, till then, i think i got this.

Love, Aeriel