cold right hand.

i'm listening to the jonas brothers... and i dont know why.. cas their weird.. and lame.. haha but cute.. hahah FUCK im stupid.

today was alright... first period didnt do shit except talk and do whatever i wanted. third was hella fun. looking at cars. talked. then went out side to take pictures :) fifth... i didnt do shit as usual. -_-

nowwww im home.. tired.. bored.. played some rock band and made some soups... and im sitting her on aim.. talking and chatting and im just... yeah. lol kevin needs to get off work like NOW. and the time is going by so slow. i miss him. its been a LONG time since i seen him. and i want to go practice driving and go to walmart. lol.

ill blog more later...

mucho mango

dawwwwwwwwwh. today was a long day and super tired.

lastnight i was up doing my stupid health booklet thingy then was on the phone with kevin till 12:30ish? and a whopping 2 hours and 28 mins. haha. thats probably the longest convo we had on the phone. i think the only thing is that.. i thot he kinda figure that i hate him texting when we are spending time together. and i think also people that are texting him need to chill and let me and kevin talk for a bit? shit. its getting fucking annoying.

after schoool, made me some yummy sandwhiches then went to benica with morgan, matt, oliver and robby. lol. hella funny shit, morgan fell LOL, oliver dumbass couldnt get up. then matt fell. man good times... then they left me for a quick second... then finnaly got me... and my hands were freeezzzing like ICECOLD BITCH. lol. i got powers.

towermart. got drinks, peachie-o's and whatever morgan got for "1.90" and gas.

and now im home and my rents were watching good luck chuck.. and i dont feel like watching those sex scenes with my family.. its kinda weird yeah?


now i'm sitting fucking bored. work out? take shower? play rockband? i dont even know.

im tired.

fasdjhk like what?

so... i'm like tired, bored, lazy. i wanted to go out and buy some vans from kaite but.. of course no one will bring me or let me drive.

I GET TO TAKE MT TEST ON TUESDAY, AT 4:40PM. I rather take it in the morning... but whatever its better then nothing. NO ONE BETTER FUCK ME UP. i'm sort of nervous. dammit.

so today.. was fucking cold and shit. and i felt like i haven't been in school in hella long. but it was whatever. it went by kinda fast if i think about it. :D thats gooooooood. haha those black dudes .. walking past me and jade... ugh.... "DUDEEE sheee thickkkkkk damyyyuuuum" and alexa ends up telling me that i do look think today. hahahha great. -_-

i was hella bored after school. played a little bit of rock band.. and then.. fucking took a nap. i was hella bored. now i'm awake... ... shit. hahah.

i felt kinda bad for some people. maybe its just me. but i started to realize i shouldn't. maybe people deserve it.. and but it sucks cas what if thats whats happening to me... relationships are fucking confusing. im in a love and hate situation.

hopefully shit will get better yeah? but i'm not complaining.. i'm all good now.

matthew's birthday is this saturday... :D i'mma take him to granite when it gets sunny. or take him to some skatepark.. but granite is hella tight.

i'm actually getting happy now. kevin is making me feel.. alot better.. and making me feel like its all good and nothing to worry about. and knowing that everything else is going good so far... i'm like damn im good.

now i need that mini cooper please. DAD YOU FUCK HEAD LETS GO GET ONEEE!
please no more rain so my dad can stop making stupid shit up. LAGGING herrreee. shit.

xanga or blogspot?

lol. i seriously don't even know why i made one.. when i can just go on my xanga. -_- lol. its all charles fault. haha.

i think i'm keep blogging more often, but i'll stick to this, if not i''ll go back to xanga or just forget it overall. haha. its better for my health.

anyways. today was depressing.. actually this whole fucking weekend was depressing.

friday: i had that shindig shit. Me, david, daniel, matt, andrew, cj, ian, brain and brahbrahs, and that was hella fun. haha but we had that emotional talking thing which was coool.. lets say.. people are weird when they talk all sad and their gone. and listening to guys talking about girls, like the truth. its fucking sad.

saturday: i did my last behind the wheel :D and finnaly told kaite how i felt, and now its better. later on i was suppose to go to my lola's viewing, but it was too late. so i got to hang with everyone at matts, and chilled for a bit. Then kevin came and we went to his mommy's hosue. then spend time with him. :D that was fun.

sunday: i went to the viewing... it was fucking sad dude. hearing and watching my aunts and cousins cry. esp, to my cousins i never seen cry ever... it was depressing.

today... was even worser. i didnt go to school which was cool but for a bad reason yeah? and like it was sader to see them cry hella MORE... and screaming when the burial happened.

god i dont even know. i'm bored.. and i'm kind of tired of writing in here. lol. i got fucking school tommorow grossss. haha. oh well. goodbye!